Venting a little bit.

I took me about six years, but i finally ended the cycle with that one guy. You have the liking stage....the really happy stage....the i love you stage.....the possibility of a future stage....and then reality sets in stage. It's been hard, but i think the reason i always kept going back was that i never finished feeling whatever i needed to feel. We didnt have alot in common, his taste of music, food, movies, clothing, was so much different than mine. Yes i know, you might get tired of the same thing. But HARDLY anything was the same. I really think im done with that relationship. I want to move on. There is so much i want to do, and see. I think he was the major part of holding me back. I still have my beliefs. I haven't changed. and i dont believe i have to.

To whoever im suppose to be with, Im here. waiting :D

they say when you meet someone your suppose to be with, you'll know. I hope thats true :D.

"Keep moving forward"

Magic to concrete

I live in a world of magic, where the bad guys always lose. Where vampires and werewolves come out from hiding. Where warlocks come out to play. Where true love conquers all. I live in a world of books. From Jane Eyre to Beastly to the Twilight Saga, and various others (the color purple, the graduate, The Grimm Brothers tales, etc). In my world, nothing can get me, nothing bad came happen. But maybe my world and reality aren't so different. In reality, yes there is pain and suffering, but maybe also some happy endings. There are villains, ex-girlfriends/boyfriends. There are the vampires, those who seem to be loners, but are content with their lives. There are werewolves, those who are active. Warlocks, those who can make anything out of nothing. Love.....now there's a tricky one. I haven't found that one love story. But i think its out there. "Love is patient," right?......Right.

Maybe my world isn't so much different than this actual world I'm in. It just takes time to find similarities. I think i will keep looking. Doesn't mean i will give up those books that I'm so fond of.

Look-a-likes???

So...ITS ALL DANIELSAN'S FAULT!!! WE (bubba, jessica, and i) are TOTALLY hooked! to 24! starring Kiefer Sutherland (the one with the gun) <3

"Say my name, say my name...." (insider)

another thing we seem to enjoy is the talentful Jefa-fa DUNHAM dotcom (Jeff Dunham). But i can't help but notice the similarities of the two people. You be the judge.

Sugar, Spice & Everything nice

Ever heard the expression "God made you the way you are for a reason."

well.... to this day i have been wondering, why he made me like this. Why i am taller than average people. Why he made me a FREAK. God loves me, right? So why do i feel uncomfortable in my own skin. Yeah ,you, yourself can change things. Like your hair color, your weight, and even your eye color. But what im talking about CANNOT be changed. My height. Thats who i am. People say "wow your lucky that your tall." honestly, im not so lucky. You try wearing high-heels and not sticking out like a sore thumb. yeah, kinda hard to do. It especially never doesn't help my self-esteem, with boys. In the RGV, it seems that every guy is what 5'7'' and shorter. I am on the verge of 5"10''. I'm not shallow, but i dont feel comfortable.

so here are my questions to you GOD! Whats the reason for my height? When do i get my Happy ending? When do i get to feel comfortable?

I am me. Nothing else.

more comfortable night......

I will soon be the proud owner of .....wait i cant remember whats its called.

GOOGLE TIME!!!


OK, well i couldnt find the exact name. But! its a Latex Mattress.

and boy did it feel comfortable, AND THAT WAS ONLY @ the STORE!!
i cant wait!

i hope this solves the whole back pain, im getting pretty sick of it!
and dont really want to go to a doctor. :(

But on Tuesday night, i hope to sleep like a baby :D

I am GIGANTOR!!! .....Fear me.

I'm 19 years of age, and i am currently on the verge of being 5'10''. (WOW) i know pretty tall. Anywho, i always have the hardest time finding pants that are.....well long enough. And finally after years and years i found a store that had some pretty long jeans, American Eagle. However, on friday when we went shopping for some clothes, i cound not find my size, yet alone LONG. So i thought ok, maybe i will try another store. I went to PacSun (pacific sun coast, for all those who have stores that can afford the entire name), and found my size and LONG, however, when i tried them on, they were TOO SHORT!!! It was then, when i started calling myself "GIGANTOR". I know i shouldnt be ashamed of who i am, but when i come to the point of not being able to find clothes, i sometimes doubt myself.

American Eagle, has the option of X-LONG, however, it can only be ordered online. So that was the plan, i would order them. I order a size bigger and X-LONG, because jeans, well.....do shrink. or get high-water. I guess thats what i have to do now, order online.

And its also funny, because shirts that are "suppose" to be dresses, well...........fit like normal shirits for me. Tall-ness.....comes with its good and its bad parts. I never have to get a stool :D



-FEAR ME!!!! :D

Pain.

For the past two weeks, i have been having a pain in my back. At first i thought it was nothing big, but then later and later is started becoming worse. Yesterday night, i felt like any little move would cause agonizing pain. It was first thought that this pain was brought on because of my mattress. I moved around, so i slept in a different position. It didn't hurt when i was laying down. But as i got up, the pain came back. It hurts to bend down, and even to put on clothes and shoes. I hope this goes away, because starting monday, im going to carry around 3 (not so light) text books in my back pack. no break, one after the other classes. Oh boy........